Day 277

I’m going to keep this brief today.

I got back my histology results on the polyps they took out last week – all benign. A huge relief, I have to admit. I feel very fortunate and blessed. I will have another colonoscopy in three years’ time, they told me. Just to make sure nothing has grown back. And I’ve promised not to start worrying about that now.

I’m reading a book about aging that’s changing my view, and that, even before today’s all clear, has been changing my often negative attitude to getting older. I now most people think I’m about 10 years younger than I am, but my brain’s not been telling me that, nor accepting that. I’d dug myself into a hole where I was thinking the only way was down, whereas, actually, the only way from here is up. Today has now reinforced that idea. I’m going to work harder on being positive, even when stresses which are not mine throw themselves into my path. In the end, we’re all responsible for our own actions. Summed up by this Carl Jung quote in the first chapter of this book – Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life, and you will call it fate. This realisation, now, makes me slightly regretful that I skived out of doing an essay comparing Jung and Freud in my final year at university 40 years ago!

I’ll leave it there.

AGGIE’S ART OF HAPPINESS – CHAPTER 227